Been feeling down lately without no apparent reason, you know when you feel you are out of the mood but you do not know what the hell for, that was Me. Was barely going through life just from and to work.
But last week heard that an old friend of mine is having a house party and he called me up and invited me said "We have not seen each other for ages". Which he was right about Have not seen this guy in almost three years so I dressed up went to the party and it was the typical house party. I mean the party thrower did not disappoint alcohol everywhere, couples or people who just met are making out in the corners or in plain sight they did not care. I sat there sipping my beer and though that I have been having my daily fix for quiet some time with the amount that keeps me looking sober and functioning for work related purposes I have not gotten wasted in a while I mean really got high in long time and remembered the feeling. Had a fix on me which I thought I would probably sell in the party but I took it and sat there and waited for the magic dragons to start flying and they did not disappoint in a matter of an hour with the drugs in my system and alcohol I am drinking I was wasted and high in a manner I was not in some time.
I was seeing blurry people and hearing the noise and voices coming from afar. I felt like there is nothing that could make me happy and nothing could make me sad, I felt nothing I felt like I am standing over a fence of a twelve feet building and have a breeze on my face and seeing people from a far. It felt good to not be responsible for anything or anyone. Not how it looked, sounded, or felt. I could not care less and I was glad.
I slept right there on my friend's couch and woke up on the cleaning lady gathering the bottles from around me I got up had a splitting headache of course. Got out side got in a cab could not be bothered with driving right now will probably get my car later. I got into my apartment crashed on the bed and slept like a dead fish for 9 hours.
It has been a while since I was kite high, been a while.
