Been feeling down lately without no apparent reason, you know when you feel you are out of the mood but you do not know what the hell for, that was Me. Was barely going through life just from and to work.
But last week heard that an old friend of mine is having a house party and he called me up and invited me said "We have not seen each other for ages". Which he was right about Have not seen this guy in almost three years so I dressed up went to the party and it was the typical house party. I mean the party thrower did not disappoint alcohol everywhere, couples or people who just met are making out in the corners or in plain sight they did not care. I sat there sipping my beer and though that I have been having my daily fix for quiet some time with the amount that keeps me looking sober and functioning for work related purposes I have not gotten wasted in a while I mean really got high in long time and remembered the feeling. Had a fix on me which I thought I would probably sell in the party but I took it and sat there and waited for the magic dragons to start flying and they did not disappoint in a matter of an hour with the drugs in my system and alcohol I am drinking I was wasted and high in a manner I was not in some time.
I was seeing blurry people and hearing the noise and voices coming from afar. I felt like there is nothing that could make me happy and nothing could make me sad, I felt nothing I felt like I am standing over a fence of a twelve feet building and have a breeze on my face and seeing people from a far. It felt good to not be responsible for anything or anyone. Not how it looked, sounded, or felt. I could not care less and I was glad.
I slept right there on my friend's couch and woke up on the cleaning lady gathering the bottles from around me I got up had a splitting headache of course. Got out side got in a cab could not be bothered with driving right now will probably get my car later. I got into my apartment crashed on the bed and slept like a dead fish for 9 hours.
It has been a while since I was kite high, been a while.
I dont know at this moment i feel the same way you felt when you are standing on an edge of a fence and starrring at the far land ahead and feels that one move could cost you everything but you could not care you just dont
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"It has been a while since I was kite high, been a while. "
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tryin to stay a good gurl as much as I can... ur post just brought so much of the past :D
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hi again me too really pass by this moods a lot the moods of depression and being very sad with no reason at all it just a mood really pass and go but please this moods are not the end of the world we are really humans we are living this life to safer we are not really in heaven we are on earth but really drugs is not the solution for this moods i know that not being responsible for anyone or anything is nice but we are after all responsible for ourselves so please take good care of yourself for god sack you really don't be deserve to be treated like that
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